Summer Fun

It's been a difficult summer having three kids and two of which just fight constantly so we often just take it out to the pool.  It's so hot and the water feels nice.  I ventured out today and got in the pool with all three kids.  That was a little chaotic but the kids always get excited when I actually get in.  Getting ready to head to Utah next week.  It couldn't come any faster!  I swear, my anxiety hit an all time high last week when we found a scorpion in cache's room and then Dave found a couple more outside.  I think I have found my phobia.  I couldn't sleep for days and still put on shoes when I have to wake up in the night to feed roe.  Ugh, they are so awful.  One plus side of summer, we all get to sleep in, in the mornings.  I think I hate waking up more than cache during the school year.  Here goes one more month of summer.  Hopefully we all survive ;)

So close but so far....

We had 3 nights of good sleep (at least five or more consecutive hours) and I thought...quietly to myself of course because I didn't wanna jinx it...that maybe this was it.  Maybe we had turned a corner?  Unfortunately, I was wrong.  Just another 1 am feeding.  I feel the fatigue just settling in and it's not welcome.  Uh, I....AM......SO ......TIRED!  I can't think straight anymore.  I fell asleep yesterday afternoon and was even confused in my sleep and couldn't figure out where I was.  This baby owes me big time, when I am old and need her to take care of me ;). Here's to hoping for at least 4 more hours.

Monroe's Blessing

Last week week we were so fortunate to have my brother and his wife and my mom fly out for Monroe's baby blessing.  I miss my family and wish we were able to spend more time together but I feel lucky they were able to come out for the blessing.  Dave gave her a beautiful blessing and I am always proud of him I know I'm not gettin up there, haha.  I am also grateful for the support of the family I have here in AZ.  We lean on them a lot being out here alone.  I hope we can be the best parents we can to our children and they feel like they can always come to us.  They grow up so fast and cache being in kindergarten feels like a whole new world.  There is so much crap out there.  Anyway, I failed at getting pictures that day so I had to put Roe in her dress later that week so I could get some pics. I feel like with this third child everything gets away from me.  Ugh, I need to be more on top of it.  Here are some pics of my beautiful babe...lover her so much.

Thrush, thrush baby

Thrush, thrush baby, badabumbum baby. For some reason this is in my head to the vanilla ice beat. We have thrush! Trying not to hate life this past week with everyone having colds, coughs, fevers, and then going to the Dr. because Roe has thrush. Never experienced this little gem with any of my other babes and it sucks. As if I didn't already spend enough time with feedings..now I get to clean and medicate us each time also. On a side note, it's seems to be clearing up pretty quick so hopefully it won't be more than a week.

To make thus post a little more positive, yesterday I felt like I really needed to sit down and play with Lyla. I don't think I do that nearly enough with her and now with Roe it seems she is really getting shafted when it comes to my attention. It's so hard, cache is the oldest so he is always playing sports and his homework nightly demands a full hour if my undivided time. Roe needs me all day and I feel like I am just so exhausted that poor Lyla just kind of gets my left overs. I never want her to feel that way. How do people with so many kids do it? How do you balance giving your kids what they need but not spoiling them and causing them to have unrealistic expectations? I had to put my phone down, put my computer down, allow myself to not have anxiety because the house really does look like a disaster zone, and ask Lyla what she wanted to play. We had a tea party (with real cookies) and it was fun. I love that little girls imagination. She spins stories of who we are what we do and never gets confused when we pretend play. I amazed by how creative and cute she is. It was a fun day!

Here we go again...

Ok, so this time I really want to keep up to date posts about what's going on in my kids lives. I found this handy app for my phone so now that I am confined to a chair at least 12 times a day (nursing a newborn takes forever) maybe I can keep better record. I would love to one day print it out for a scrapbook, no idea how to do that but I will cross that bridge when I get to it! Life has been busy to say the least with our new addition, Monroe Sun Kim. She requires....ummmm, demands, A LOT of attention. Sometimes I ask lyla if we should take her back to the hospital and she gets this worried look on her face and says no. She is in love with her baby sister, I don't blame her she is too precious. Cache walked in my room this this morning and looked over at Roe and just said, mom, baby roe is so cute. We love her so much. Newborns are a catch 22. on one hand They are amazing, a miracle, everything new thing they do amazes you but on the other, I can't wait for the night feedings to be over, to have a somewhat self sufficient child, and to be able to have alone time for more than a couple hours. I keep telling myself just a few more months but it's hard because in just a few more months she won't be this tiny newborn. I guess I will just have to enjoy other people's new babies....this shop has closed down.

Not Doing So Hot

Well, so far I have not been too on top of writing this blog once a week. Although I will say February has had its trials. I think we were sick every week, almost everyday in February. I just didn't know how to get us better. Lots of fevers, lots of runny noses, strange viruses, and so much whining. I hope March looks better and we can get back into routine.

New Year, New Goals

My new goal for this year is to write an entry every Sunday for my kids. I want to make this into a book for them (not sure how to do that yet but don't have to worry about that for another year!) Last year flew by and my baby is now 2. Crap, that means I really have to start teaching her stuff! Potty Training, colors, abc's, all the things I am terrible at!
Lyla, you are the most precious thing ever. I seriously just want to sit and squeeze you all the time. You copy your brother in everything he says and does. Sometimes I feel like its a good thing...other times not so great! I love when I hear your baby voice say, shoot! oh man. I can't help but laugh to myself. You love getting yourself dressed which drives me crazy because you put together, shall we say...interesting, outfits. I wouldn't say you have hit the terrible two's because you don't really throw tantrums but you always let us know when you want something. I hope this year I can be so much better at keeping track of the weekly things you do, you are so cute and I wish I could capture every moment. It's so hard to punish you when you are so darn cute!

Cache, You have grown up so much in the past year. You started preschool, which you love and are doing amazing in. Already learning to read site words and learning how to write. It's pretty amazing how fast you learn. And I am so thankful for the people who know how to teach you these things because I am sure if it was just up to me you wouldn't be as far along. You are playing football and love it. I think you are enjoying it more than baseball and since you hopefully wont read this until you are older...I enjoy watching the football far more than baseball. I can't believe that you are going to Kindergarten this year. Part of me is excited and the other part is so sad. We have been together everyday, that's going to be a hard adjustment. I am excited to try and keep updated on whats going on in our lives.

Some Family photos
Dec 2011